starting to feel like everything is beyond my power. i’m not sure whether to follow my heart, or my head. listen to my friends, or my enemies.

the idea, that you have no clue makes it worse. you avoid talking about everything. you act like everything is fine. but this hurts. i can already see it ending un-pleasently.

i think you know if this is aimed at you. but maybe just do the one thing that would make my whole year. i wonder if you will see this. i wonder even if you have any idea. we’ll see.